Tottenham striker Jermain Defoe has admitted his frustration at a lack of big-game opportunities this season.
The England international, who scored his first Premier League goals of the campaign in Sunday's draw with Wolves, is hoping to play a part against AC Milan tomorrow night in the last-16 Champions League second leg clash.
He is not guaranteed to start, though, and has revealed his slide down the White Hart Lane pecking order has annoyed him.
He said: "It's been hard. You start to think: 'What am I doing here?' I'm used to playing in big games. I've played in big games for my clubs and for my country. It'll be a tough game (against Milan). I hope I'm playing and if I can score and win the game then it'll be great. But I remember playing against Charlton (in the FA Cup in January) and scoring two goals, then the next weekend I missed out.
"I was upset about that because once I start scoring I'm confident and I have the feeling I know I'll score in the next game. We played Manchester United and I thought, 'I'm playing', but I didn't start."
Spurs boss Harry Redknapp employed just one striker in the first leg against Milan, with Peter Crouch selected, and scoring the only goal in the San Siro.