Mike Brown is struggling to accept the 24-21 defeat by New Zealand in Saturday's match after conceding England fell short once again.
Stuart Lancaster's men slumped to a fifth successive loss to the All Blacks, who departed Twickenham treasuring an important victory in the arena that will host the knockout stages of next year's World Cup.
Apart from Jonny May's stunning early try and the unwillingness to concede defeat that has become a permanent feature of England under Lancaster, there was little to applaud.
The score flattered the 2015 World Cup hosts and Brown refuses to excuse another failed assault on one of the southern hemisphere giants.
"At the moment I'm going to have a little sulk because we came up short - again," Brown (right) said.
"If we're brutally honest, it's another 'what if?'.
"We're here to win and again we've let it go.
"We've got to start putting these games away and there is massive disappointment at the moment.
"We're a competitive bunch of lads and this is a feeling of disappointment that is hard to put into words."