The husband of Seema Banu, who was strangled with her two children in their Dublin home, has said he wishes he could turn back time to be with his family.
Seema (37), her daughter Asfira Riza (11) and six-year-old son Faizan Syed were found dead in their home in Llewellyn Court, Ballinteer, last month.
Gardaí have confirmed the children were murdered, but have yet to publicly announce that was the case in Ms Banu's death.
However, detectives are treating it as if it is a murder investigation.
Seema's husband Sameer Syed broke his silence over the tragedy to speak to the Sunday World.
"If there was somehow, some way I could get everything back, if it was possible to go back in time and just get everything back, I would like to do it," he said.
"If God gave me one wish, only one wish in my life, I want to go back and be with my family and be happy."
He said he wakes up every day thinking his family are still with him.
"I wish it would go away like a bad nightmare. Every day I think it's a nightmare and if I wake up everything will be like before.
"I get up and think it's just some bad dream. I get up and think things are back to normal.
"I talk to my wife and kids every day. They are with me."
Ms Banu and the children were buried in the Newcastle Cemetery in Co Dublin in a small ceremony last Friday week.
Mr Syed wept as he opened their coffins and kissed them goodbye before they were laid to rest.
The funerals were live-streamed to India, where Ms Banu's family watched in their local village.
They said they were upset that they were not able to bring the bodies back to India for burial.
Mr Syed said it was Islamic tradition for someone to be buried in the place they die.
Ms Banu moved to Ireland last February after Mr Syed got a job working as a software developer.
They had lived apart for a time, she and the children remaining in India while Mr Syed was abroad.
Mr Syed said he intends to stay in Ireland as his wife dreamed of settling down for the rest of her life here.
He felt that burying his family here honoured that wish.
"My wife and my family, when they came to Ireland, they came to dream we would settle down here, so I will try my best to make their dream come true," he said.
"It was my wife's dream to settle here and that's why I did the ceremony here.
"She was very happy, I think. We had a short time in Ireland."
He said he understands how difficult it is for Ms Banu's family in India.
"From my pain I can also understand how much pain my wife's family has, how much pain my family has and how much pain my friends have," he said.
"There are no words to explain the pain."
Mr Syed added that his life has changed for ever.
"My everything is gone. It is not only for a few weeks but all my life left. My future life is different," he said.
"People say their life can change at any moment.
"My life has completely changed. I don't know what words to say."