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Reeva mother tells of her nightmares


June Steenkamp

June Steenkamp

June Steenkamp

The mother of the model shot dead by Oscar Pistorius has said she suffers from nightmares about her final moments.

In an emotional interview, June Steenkamp spoke of her anguish at seeing images in court of the athlete covered in her daughter Reeva's blood after he killed her.

She said she did not believe Pistorius loved Miss Steenkamp (29), saying he saw her as a "trophy".

Pistorius (27) was found guilty of culpable homicide last month and jailed for five years, but he could be out of prison in 10 months.

Mrs Steenkamp told BBC Radio 5 Live that the thought of her daughter's last moments in a toilet cubicle in Pistorius' home on Valentine's Day last year is "still there".

"We have nightmares about it all the time," she said. "That has been the hardest part to get through - that she would have been expecting God to come and save her.

"We couldn't do anything to help her. It's just too much for us to even think about what she was going through in that bathroom. She had no escape."

Mrs Steenkamp recalled the moment she learned of her daughter's death from a detective.


"He said, 'There has been an accident, she's been shot'. I said, 'You better tell me if she's dead or alive', and he said, 'I'm very sorry, she's passed away'. I was shocked. I couldn't believe it."

She said the couple had been arguing "all the time", which she thought was unusual for a new relationship.

"That was a slight warning, but I didn't know. She kind of hid it from us in the beginning."

Mrs Steenkamp said Reeva's death had left her and her husband Barry devastated.

"Nothing except her being here will help," she said. "I feel very angry when I think what he did to her. Something went wrong - we will never know unless he decides to talk about it."

She said she had forgiven Pistorius, but added: "He has taken everything from us. She will never have our grandchildren. She will never have a wedding. She will never have a career."

She described a moment during the trial when images of Pistorius were shown in court.

"I saw him standing covered in her blood. That will never be removed from my mind," she said.

Mrs Steenkamp's has written a book, titled Reeva: A Mother's Story.