'I hit rock bottom after arrest for drink-driving', says ashamed Baz
Baz Ashmawy has opened up for the first time on the drink-driving incident that saw him arrested six years ago.
The 50 Ways to Kill Your Mammy star admitted he had not spoken about the experience until now because he had been "ashamed" and his family get "upset" when he talks about it.
Speaking on his summer series The Baz Thing on RTE Radio 1, the presenter admitted he felt like his world had "collapsed" when he saw the news of his arrest had broken.
"I remember I arrived in the studio to review the morning papers and there was my face all over nearly every front page," he said.
"I could literally see that my world was collapsing right in front of me."
While Ashmawy is ashamed of the incident, he no longer lets it get to him and has accepted nothing can be done to change it.
"It's difficult for me to talk about. It's something I'm ashamed of and something I hate about myself but, not just that, I kind of passed all those feelings on to my family and the people I love," he added.
"It was embarrassing and shameful for them. I know they get upset when I talk about it.
"I was sorry I did it but the fact is I did do it and all the flippin' sorries in the world aren't going to change that."
The 42-year-old's career took a hit after his arrest and he lost his previous radio job and found it difficult to secure any other work.
"The reason I'm talking about it tonight is because shortly after that incident I ended up in hospital with my health," he said.
"My contract was cancelled. I lost my job in radio. No one would employ me in TV.
"I was unemployed for 18 months. We had a one-year-old, Hannah, and my missus was seven months pregnant.
"I swear to God if I could touch it it would turn to sh*t. I hit rock bottom.
"You see you can avoid looking in the mirror for a long time but one day when you least expect it you'll catch your reflection and you'll be forced to ask yourself do you like who you see? Are you happy? And I didn't. I wasn't."