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Saturday 16 December 2017

'I blame myself over Peaches' death ... I failed as a father'- grieving dad Bob

Bob Geldof has said that he blames himself for the death of daughter Peaches.

The Dublin native (63) has revealed he feels that he could have done more to protect her.

"You're the father who is responsible and clearly failed," he said.

The writer and socialite died of a heroin overdose at her home last April, leaving behind husband Tom and two young sons Astala and Phaedra.

The Boomtown Rats star said that he had known about her heroin addiction and tried his best to help her through her addiction problems.

"Of course I knew about it and we did more than talk about it. She was super bright. Too bright. A very errant mind that could focus intensely on a book which she would consume and just absorb it," he said.

"But the rest was a franticness. She knew what life was supposed to be and, God bless her, she tried very hard to get there. And she didn't make it."

One family that has been rocked by tragedy, the four Geldof girls grew up in the media spotlight after his split from Paula Yates and her own death from an overdose back in 2000.

And he claimed in an interview with ITV News how the media "got at them to get at me".

"Because it hurt me so much but it just damaged them and I'm not just blaming the newspapers, of course not … You blame yourself," he continued.

"You're the father who is responsible and clearly failed."

He said he has tortured himself wondering what he could have done to have saved her.

"For anybody watching who has a dead kid and you're a parent: you go back, you go back, you go back, you go back, you go over, you go over. What could you have done? You do as much as you can," he added.

Saying that he still hadn't come to terms with her death, Geldof said that performing with his band The Boomtown Rats was therapeutic for him at this difficult time.

"I put on my snakeskin suit and I can be this other thing. It is utterly cathartic.

"Those two hours and I am drained. In every sense it empties, it drains my mind. On stage I'm lost in this thing and it's a very brief respite," he said.

"When Paula died and Peaches a few months ago… the ability to try and understand, although it is incomprehensible with the immensity of the grief, is there.

"But it takes a long while for it to filter through from the filth to get to the front so you can itemise.

"I am not there with Peaches yet. It is all too soon, all too sudden. Too unexpected," he added.

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